I love Him, I love him not.......

Today I woke up, it is beautiful outside, The sun is shining, I have no pain in my body, All the bills are paid, I have a little extra money in my pocket to buy me a little something nice, There is food in the house, The children have great activities that they enjoy, The spouse is happy, I love you Lord!
Today, it is difficult to get out of bed, I lost my job, The mortgage is due, heck the house is in foreclosure, It's raining cats and dogs outside, The basement is flooded, My bank account is overdrawn, My credit cards are in collections, The kids' grades are bad, They all need shoes and clothes, There is no food, My husband wants a divorce. I love you not today Lord!
Luke 23:21- But they shouted again, "Crucify him! Crucify him!" Mark 15:17-19 - They put a purple robe on Jesus and used thorny branches to make a crown for his head. They began to call out to him, "Hail, King of the Jews!" The soldiers beat Jesus on the head many times with a stick. They spit on him and made fun of him by bowing on their knees and worshipping him. Luke 23:46 - Jesus cried out in a loud voice, Father, I give you my life." After Jesus said this, he died.
He Died!! He did not have to die. But he died for me and you. He was born of flesh, He was beaten, He was tempted, He was ridiculed, and He rose again so that we may have a chance to be in His presence. And .......: John 20:22 - After he said this, he breathed on them and said, "Receive the Holy Spirit."
I can't believe someone could love me that much; I won't believe it; I'm struggling everyday. Life is hard!! But, Jesus sent me a comforter! I can do this; this whole life thing. No I can't, I can't make it, I've failed! Nah, I need to stop trippin', He Loves Me......and I Love Him too!!
Thank you Jesus, thank you!